the state i am in

It's official...

2010-08-03T23:15:00.002-06:00

...my blog has moved. Things That Start with "C"

89 comments of spam on the wall, or: How I learned to stop worrying and love life after college

2010-01-10T21:10:00.006-07:00

Apparently I have 91 comments that need to be moderated, two of which are short anonymous comments and the rest are in Japanese. No, I didn't bother to read them all. Daniel has nominated to change the name of this blog to "The State I Was In" seeing how often I update this thing. Part of the problem is that I don't feel motivated to blog unless I'm depressed. I've actually been marvelously

graduated.

2009-05-14T14:55:00.003-06:00

Depressed. I seem to have fallen into a funk. Apparently my internship can only be extended for 30 days past the date of my graduation. So, I have a lot less time than I thought I did. It's really hard to get myself to do anything. I've been ADD and every time I start working on something, I get distracted. I'm also sort of pessimistic about my job prospects right now. It takes a lot of effort

status report

2009-04-02T12:11:00.004-06:00

So, I keep wanting to write a blog post, but feel like I have nothing to say. Graduation is looming, so there's something I can talk about. Also, I'm procrastinating at work. This can count as my lunch break. This is my last semester at CU, and when I'm done I'll have two degrees and a minor to show for it, a GPA above 3.3, a stole, a medal, and lots of thank you notes to write. I'm starting to

ow

2009-01-27T12:42:00.003-07:00

I went to the doctor's yesterday. Surprisingly enough, the only thing that still hurts is my arm, where I got my tetanus shot. It feels like the flesh where the bandaid was is bruised. That's all I really wanted to say. I think part of the reason I write blog posts so infrequently is because, for the most part, I only have one thing that I want to write about, and I could just as easily contain

back to work

2009-01-22T11:07:00.002-07:00

I really don't update very often, do I. My life seems sort of boring from inside of it. I go to school, go to work, go home, watch tv, play Tabula Rasa, sleep. I'm enjoying the New Pornographers CD that my dad copied for me. It's been in my car for a few weeks now and there's only one song that I skip on it. When I first listened to the CD, I hated it, of course. The only way for me to find

Thanksgiving.

2008-12-02T11:53:00.001-07:00

Thanksgiving was interesting. Daniel and my mother and I all went down to Grand Junction and spent a week with Daniel's family. Thanksgiving dinner was quite impressive. His aunt "rented a hall" which basically ended up being a large structure with two rooms, one smaller one in the front with a fire and tables for all the food, and the one in back being quite large, with long tables for eating

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2008-11-20T21:03:00.004-07:00

I've been thinking about my blog a lot lately. Some of it has been spurred by Daniel, who just created a new blog for himself on his personal website. I know that some people still check this every day (lord knows why) so I've been spending some time lately composing blog entries in my head. These then turn into meta-entries on the fact that I spend more time (much more time) composing entries

do you hear it too?

2008-08-13T11:13:00.003-06:00

I swear I'm going crazy. This is the fifth time in the past two weeks that I've heard a snatch of a Paul Simon song floating through the office. By the time I leap up from my chair to investigate the source, it's gone. Today was "You Can Call Me Al"... Previous occurrences have included "Me and Julio" and "Late In the Evening". ... I have solved the mystery! Ok, so I wasn't going crazy, but I

A break.

2008-02-02T12:20:00.001-07:00

Today has been nice. I haven't done much of anything, and I don't really plan to. It's a nice contrast to the happenings of the past week. Every night I've had plans. I interviewed with Google. That in itself was an interesting experience. On Monday I went to a tour of the Boulder office with ACM, and then just hung around until I went to dinner with some google employees and recruiters, as well

The return.

2008-01-08T12:11:00.000-07:00

I realized that I started a post earlier this summer, the day after I posted a link to my work blog. I never posted it, but I think I should now. "By the way, things I should probably mention: "My parents are getting a divorce; they separated this Christmas. Earlier this week, my Dad proposed to his girlfriend, Shannon. "I'm going to Japan this fall; I finally got notified of my acceptance by

summer website

2007-06-14T16:12:00.000-06:00

For those of you that still read this, or that are interested in what I'm doing this summer, I am required to make a website by the organization sponsoring my summer research. In other words, since I'm required to have a website for work, I'm much more likely to actually update it. So, here it is: DMP Webpage Enjoy.

No more rulers, no more books, no more teachers' dirty looks (post #700)

2007-05-04T17:14:00.000-06:00

NO MORE SCHOOL! All I have left is... my 10 page essay, due Monday. Oops. Guess I should start that, huh? Schedule: Tonight: Go out to dinner with Daniel. Go see Leah's LED clothing light show dancing thing. Tomorrow: Drive Dan to school for his final at 9. Study for astronomy final. Astronomy final at 10:30. Lunch,

avatars

2007-03-15T23:30:00.000-06:00

This is what I have been doing all day:

t-shirts and birthdays.

2007-03-05T20:42:00.000-07:00

I was surfing on Engrish.com and I found this t-shirt: Spilled Milk Indeed. I'll be turning 21 next month. In 6 weeks, actually... I don't know what to do. I'm not really very excited about it, actually. I don't like alcohol, and I don't want to get drunk. I guess I'd like to try some drinks (though dad did say he'd buy me some alcohol if I came by to see the show). I want a piña colada. And

Links

2007-02-08T10:07:00.000-07:00

Note the strikethrough on the blogs under the "Links" section. Those are all people who have either gotten their journal deleted, or have updated less recently than ME. Now that's sad. Time for ... work? Crud, I'm late. Maybe I should work from home instead... Or actually do my homework.

Do not eat

2007-02-08T08:51:00.000-07:00

バレンタイン一押し: おいしそ～う！食べちゃってもイーデスカ?! (Valentine Push: They look delicious! Is it okay to eat them?!) These are so adorable.

odd humor.

2006-12-05T17:51:00.000-07:00

And the aleph null song: Aleph-null bottles of beer on the wall, Aleph-null bottles of beer. Take one down, pass it around, Aleph-null bottles of beer on the wall.

update

2006-10-16T02:01:00.000-06:00

I guess I haven't posted in a long time. Partly, I think it's because I no longer feel the need to write about my life. I'm busy. I don't want to spend my time struggling to write about something meaningful. Writing on this isn't for me anymore. It's just for those who read it... (Though I don't know how many people still do these days.) It's difficult to think of interesting events in my life,

Song

2006-07-12T13:39:00.000-06:00

When I am dead, my dearest, Sing no sad songs for me; Plant thou no roses at my head, Nor shady cypress tree: Be the green grass above me With showers and dewdrops wet; And if thou wilt, remember, And if thou wilt, forget. I shall not see the shadows, I shall not feel the rain; I shall not hear the nightingale Sing on, as if in pain: And dreaming through

sara

2006-07-12T11:31:00.000-06:00

I've been making quite a few trips to Aurora lately, and every time, I pass by the turn into Sara's old neighborhood. It's been odd, because I just bought a Death Cab for Cutie CD - which reminds me of her, because she was the one who introduced me to Postal Service. And through pure coincidence today, while surfing the net, I came across a profile of her sister, on CouchSurfing.com. Ah well.

yay for improv

2006-06-01T17:12:00.000-06:00

The previous post was an outline of a story written by my dad about 12 years ago. My mom was working on illustrations for it. I think they should publish it. It would be a hit. I invite you to an exciting evening of improv comedy on June 23: Clicking that will add the event to your google calendar, if you have one. I don't know what it will do if you don't have one. For those of you who are

Jessa and the Meatballs

2006-05-31T04:01:00.000-06:00

Jessa is having dinner with her parents. they finish. she isn't. she hasn't eaten anyof them. mom says she can't leave the table until they're all gone. Jessa says they're bad. mom says you haven't even tried them yet. Parents leave, telling her she has to finish them before she's done. meatballs say pssst after parents leave. offer her wishes if she'll help them escape. meatballs are

oh, go buy a kanji dictionary

2006-05-09T01:05:00.000-06:00

See my l33t kanji game: Kanjiflies! It will be updated soon. Very soon. Muahahaha! I have finished my final paper, self-evaluation, script for the oral exam, and description of extra project(s) (I did three). Booyah! Now, to bed, so that I can wake up bright-eyed and bushy-tailed at the wonderful hour of 6 o'clock! Maybe if I set one alarm for 6:00 and the other for 6:30, I'll manage to drag

listlessness.

2006-05-05T09:39:00.000-06:00

current song: Noir - Sorrow So I was reading Jude's xanga this morning, and I noticed a comment by Sarah mentioning a question. So I went to Sarah's xanga, and I found the question. That's a really awesome question. At any rate, for those Colorado students that want to rat out their pothead friends for a bit of money: Farrand Field 4-20-2006 I don't see anyone I recognize; no monies for me.

hello again

2006-05-03T10:20:00.000-06:00

This morning, on the net, I think I found the Japanese equivalent of "lol". 爆笑 -> ばくしょう -> bakushou It means "burst of laughter." It was used thusly: "I haven't finished moving my page over, but since I have about 240 pages to rewrite, please wait patiently (burst of laughter)." So, I have a lot of work to do, and very little time. My Computers As Components final project is due tomorrow,

Comments?!

2006-02-22T08:51:00.000-07:00

I thought no one read my blog or posted comments anymore, when in reality Blogger had been hiding them from me! Bad Blogger! There, it should behave itself now. Chaffin, I'm glad you like the baby counter. Our role-playing group does mostly white wolf stuff. Currently we're in the middle of a Dark Ages changing breeds campaign. That is to say, we're playing in the time setting of the

dvorak

2006-02-21T22:57:00.000-07:00

I'm currently typing in Dvorak. It's... interesting. And slow. Very slow. Not much has happened lately. On Saturday I participated in the game of "Assassin." This included an enjoyable amount of stalking Travis, having my throat slit with a plastic spoon, engaging in an honorable paper tube battle with Steven, and hiding out in Duane for ten minutes with a bag of sand. I've also found the time

konnichiwa, sekai

2006-02-01T21:43:00.000-07:00

I just wrote up how to write a "Hello World" C++ program. In Japanese. I'm tired. That took way too long.

Farscape.

2006-01-24T23:20:00.000-07:00

There's also a bunch of Farscape art. It's actually quite cool. I was looking for ideas for the SciFi t-shirt contest.

ECEN 2120

2006-01-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

My Computers as Components professor is on Facebook. I don't know. It just seemed odd. Off to my first day of college physics! Hooray!

owari (fin)

2005-12-19T11:22:00.000-07:00

Fall semester is over. I went back to Aurora on Thursday and Friday to hang out with my parents. I played Soul Calibur pretty much the whole time. It was enjoyable. My mother experienced carpal tunnel symptoms. That was not the enjoyable part. When I picked up lunch at Chipotle on Friday, I saw Jared Hughes, but I didn't recognize him until after I had left. It was really eerie. The whole

wishlist of sorts

2005-11-20T16:08:00.000-07:00

The following are awesome. doctor who scarf buffalo sauce fuzzy dice XL binary shirt hello kitty rubiks cube

Kingdom Hearts II = Lurv

2005-11-18T01:27:00.000-07:00

The worlds of Kingdom Hearts II will include: Beauty & The Beast The Nightmare Before Christmas The Little Mermaid Aladdin Hercules (The new worlds:) Mulan Lion King Pirates of the Caribbean Steamboat Willie And Tron has just been announced. Eeee! Tron! That's awesome. ... And Auron. There are screenshots. Of him killing things. Yay! So I watched one of the previews. On the

procrastination

2005-11-13T23:37:00.000-07:00

I'm sick of this layout but I don't have time to make a new one. My stomach feels funny. I need to do Japanese homework. I think that's why I'm still awake. Otherwise I'd be sleeping. And yet, notice that I'm not actually getting anything done. I'm just postponing homework more, and sleep in the process. Roleplaying is fun. I like the tv series Lost. I'm hungry, or something. Stupid stomach.

2005-11-11T10:59:00.000-07:00

So this one time, I got this piece of custard-looking pie from the fridge at work, and it tasted salty. I threw it away. About a month later, it was revealed to me that it was not, in fact, a custard pie, but brie.

people, and such

2005-11-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

I stole this from a baby site. So everyone can see how old I am. Aren't I precious. It's been a long time since I've written anything. I guess I'm one of those irresponsible webloggers who never updates. I went to a Halloween party at Mines last Saturday. I hung out with Eric, Libby, Erin, Eve, Ramrod (I have no idea what his actual name is - Ramirez?), and Libby's friend Karin. It's been a

poker

2005-10-21T01:59:00.000-06:00

I just spent 2 hours playing online poker with Marilyn. Awesome.

spring registration status

2005-10-12T09:05:00.000-06:00

I will be eligible to register for my spring classes on November 1st at 5:30pm. Clearly, I am only posting this to make others jealous. How the heck am I going to know what classes I want to take so far in advance? I'll probably end up registering sometime in mid-December and not getting into any of the classes I want. Speaking of which, I wonder if Jude's taking Physics 1 next semester, or if

jean holes

2005-10-09T03:00:00.000-06:00

So you know how I just made that entry about throwing away my favorite jeans because they had holes in the thighs? And how "I can hold off on buying the Old Navy jeans until I throw away another pair"? Looks like I'll be making a trip to Old Navy to use those giftcards. The jeans I'm currently wearing have a hole in them. In the crotch. Right at the seam at the bottom of the fly. It was much

dinner

2005-10-06T18:44:00.000-06:00

Oh, man, chicken caesar salad and mandarin oranges - yum. It feels good to eat healthy(er) for a change. The gumbo soup was not as good as I remember though. I was probably hungrier with lower expectations the first time I tried it. Still good, though.

every step that you take could be your biggest mistake

2005-10-06T14:58:00.000-06:00

current song: Coldplay - What If I bought Coldplay's new album (X&Y) at Sam's Club last time I went there with Cam and Daniel. The CD cost $12. The jeans I bought cost more than that. But less than they would have at Old Navy. You could say "But the jeans you buy at Old Navy don't cost anything." Which is true. Because I have gift cards. But now I can buy free Old Navy jeans, and still have

chill

2005-10-04T22:37:00.000-06:00

It was cold today. I forgot my hoodie. I'd thought I'd left it in math class, but when I returned home I found it hanging on the back of my computer chair. My hands still feel brittle, almost. As if the cold makes the joints less elastic, the tendons harder to flex. Or maybe I'm just getting carpal tunnel. I have math homework due tomorrow, a computer assignment I haven't started, an overdue

to do

2005-10-02T22:26:00.000-06:00

current song: C:\WINDOWS\system32\oobe\images\title.wma It's a cool song. Follow the filepath and you too shall find it... Perhaps it's better to title my posts after I've written the entire entry. I'll see how that works out. I'm quitting Dracon Games. For a while at least. It's another thing to make me feel guilty about not spending enough time on. We'll see how things go... I still need to

grammar lesson

2005-09-16T12:15:00.000-06:00

ことになる。koto ni naru. it was decided (by someone else) ことにする。koto ni suru. I decided ものだ。emotional content →したものだ。 shita mono da. I remember doing fondly →するものだ。 suru mono da. you should do →するものか。 suru mono ka. it's better that... →いいものだ。 ii mono da. i wish that... →してみたいものだ。 shite mitai mono da. want to... ように、、、。you ni... the purpose; to indirectly tell; "I told him to..." なくてもいいだ。nakute mo ii

things that are on my phone's todo list that shouldn't be

2005-09-12T19:36:00.000-06:00

When I walked into Advanced Math today, I saw this written on the chalkboard: Lonely wanderer thinks by proof of contradiction that he can not exist — nonexistant I have been told by my Japanese Literature in Translation teacher to rent "The Twilight Samurai." Apparently, it's... good. Or something. Alas, I cannot remember the code to my ETH classroom, so I had it on my phone.

musings

2005-08-29T21:51:00.000-06:00

So, screw it. Back to English. Apparently for Japanese class, one of the assignments is to create your own blog (yes, on blogger even) and make entries in Japanese. So… Back to normal. Trying to write entries in Japanese was making me want to write less often, rather than more often (if it’s even possible for me to write less often). Yes, I did have wind of this ahead of time, as Saegusa-sensei

私の恋人

2005-08-08T22:51:00.000-06:00

背が高くて、目がきれいで、歯がちょっと黄色くて、髪が長いです。毎朝、起きて、朝ご飯を食べます。つかれても、昼ご飯を作って、仕事へ行きます。午前八時半から午後五時まで働いて、家へ帰ります。笑った時、本当に嬉しいみたいです。 He's tall, he has pretty eyes, his teeth are a little yellow, his hair is long. Every morning, he wakes up, and eats breakfast. Even if he's tired, he makes lunch and goes to work. From 8:30 to 5:00, he works, and then he returns home. When he laughs, he looks truly happy.

つまらない物

2005-08-06T12:20:00.000-06:00

音楽：パフィーの「スイスイ」昨日工学のビルに二人のダニエルの一週間に一回の会議が終わる時、プリンターを使うために同じの部屋に行った。二人番のダニエルは私に日本語のクラスで聞きまして、このページを打ち明けました。「日本語で書くの？つまらないはずだよ」と言いました。本当につまらないですか。 music: Puffy Amiyumi – Sui Sui Yesterday, just before the end of the two Daniel’s weekly meeting in the engineering center, I went into the same room in order to use the printer. The second Daniel asked me about my Japanese class, and I told him about

英語もいい？

2005-07-28T17:59:00.000-06:00

Would people like it if, for every entry I wrote in Japanese, I gave the English translation? Please leave a comment below, for feedback!

新しい

2005-07-28T13:46:00.000-06:00

日本語の練習のために日本語で書こうと思います。下手でも、書きます。書けば書くほど、とくいですから、毎週３～４回書いてみます。 In order to practice Japanese, I plan on writing in Japanese. Even though I'm poor at it, I will write.　The more I write, the better I will become, so I will try to write 3 or 4 entries every week. 英語で　(English)　：　gamedev blog

2005-07-03T14:05:00.000-06:00

gamedev.cs.colorado.edu/~ichigo

laptop

2005-07-01T13:21:00.000-06:00

I picked up... crappy nail. Pardon me while I go cut it so that 'c's and 'd's are less annoying to type. Ok, that's better. Yesterdy I went home to Aurora and picked up my laptop (and the money I need to pay my rent... which reminds me, I need to write a check) and am now sitting in my apartment mooching internet. Hooray for mooching. My new laptop is sooo pretty... Me likeses. Me will play

screw you blogger

2005-06-24T15:25:00.000-06:00

Quit screwing up my damn layout! I don't want to have to write another work around this time! Ok, fine, that's it, I'm getting my own damn webpage. In another... uh... year or so.

and a final post for the afternoon

2005-06-24T15:17:00.000-06:00

CU CSCI Student Directory - Seniors What the hell?

oh the irony

2005-06-24T15:11:00.000-06:00

Wow, it's really quite exciting. I got hit number 11111! Too bad it's on my own frickin' web journal.

whatever

2005-06-24T15:04:00.000-06:00

Eh... Life goes on. Things are back to the way they were before, kind of. My dad bought me a laptop on Father's Day. I bought him Aqua Teen Hunger Force, season 2. I think it was a good gift. We watched a few episodes. Mom, since I didn't get her a gift on Mother's Day, got the belated crappy consolation prize of Raspberry Altoids (which I'd gotten over spring break but kept forgetting to

no, I'm not dead

2005-06-17T13:09:00.000-06:00

Yes, it's been a while. So... My laptop's dead. While attempting to jiggle the powerplug back into place, I turned and tripped on the cord, resulting in the laptop falling off the dresser it had been placed upon. I managed to catch my laptop mid fall, but not before it bashed itself on the dresser. So now it has a lovely gigantic diagonal burst of dead pixels, and the power cord sparks and hisses

2005-05-09T01:55:00.000-06:00

Yes, I'm a terrible child. Film School: The Interactive Adventure

stuff.

2005-05-09T01:32:00.000-06:00

Did I mention that my glasses are broken and are now being held together with tape? Did I mention that I'm done with finals? I got an A in Japanese. I got a B- in math. I don't know my other two grades yet. I probably won't for a while. I think I'll get a triple major. I don't know if I want to study abroad in Japan for a whole year. I think I might miss people too much. It's nice for

2005-04-26T08:49:00.001-06:00

- - - - - - - - - - A & S HOURS REQUIREMENTS FOR DEGREE - - - - - - - - - - - 1. BACHELOR OF ARTS HOURS (120) 6 hours remain of the 120 total hours required for a BA degree. Of course, that's counting the classes I'll be taking in summer and fall.

coincidence

2005-04-21T22:39:00.000-06:00

A few interesting things have happened since my last post... I saw Chaffin... a few days ago? A week ago? Yes, I think it was last Thursday. At any rate, I had wandered to the Physics building with Luke (he helps out students in the little help lab place down there) and so after chatting with him a bit, he found someone to help... So I decided to explore. The help room connected with some labs,

2005-04-12T00:57:00.000-06:00

And as he walked away, not once did he look back.

oh my f***ing god.

2005-04-11T10:28:00.000-06:00

Ok, so I'm listening to my roommate and her friend have a discussion about adderol... You know, this really clears up some doubts for me. I do think I have ADD after all. They're talking about taking this stuff, and they get fidgety and start talking really fast or they get jittery. What the hell?! That's me OFF ritalin. You're not supposed to be that way after you take ritalin or adderol or any

disproof

2005-04-06T08:38:00.000-06:00

So, I've been thinking... you know how you get those forwards with the friendly advice and such, like... "To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world," and "Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to." (Both of which are lovely sayings, which I have no problem with.) Now, consider the phrase "No man or woman is worth your tears, and the

spring break

2005-04-01T17:34:00.000-07:00

So it's been a long time since I updated. The most interesting thing I'd say has happened is my trip over Spring Break. On Saturday I came down to Denver, did some stuff. I can't remember now. I really can't... On Sunday I went to Robots with Nikki and my parents, then I drove up to Boulder to pick out stuff I needed to take with me, and to get Daniel's stuff. On Monday I had a dentist

artpad

2005-03-21T00:35:00.000-07:00

Here's a nifty little site I stumbled across: artpad. I drew a picture with it: here. I'd recommend you set it to the fastest setting. It's really nifty to be able to see these drawings in progress... My drawing rather sucks, but eh. I'll get better. Maybe sometime I'll steal my mom's tablet and draw with that. Fun. And yes, I realize the proportions are all wrong... eh. The point is that the

2005-03-20T11:48:00.000-07:00

make your vote count!

finally, an update

2005-03-19T23:16:00.000-07:00

current song: The Killers - Smile Like You Mean It Over 10000 hits, and I didn't even know it... I think Daddy got hit number 10000. ... That's a big number. I know it's been a while since I reset my counter (like, August of 2003ish). But it's still pretty amazing to me. daniel: ...So, after working at the front lanes one time when they needed backup (you know me, I always respond to that

sooooooo happy!

2005-03-09T08:41:00.000-07:00

I don't get it, I'm just really happy right now. It's quite nice. Ah, there's my smart card reader! Now I can send Sarah those concert pics. Well, pre and post. I really am happy. I took two ritalin this morning; I know they're not the cause of my happiness, but I think they might be working, a little. It's nice to be up so early. I got to talk to Daniel before he

every day turns out to be a little bit more

2005-03-04T23:35:00.000-07:00

current song: Modest Mouse - Bukowski So I think I may triple major after all. The Modest Mouse concert last night was really fun. It definitely lived up to my expectations, though I'm guessing that the only reason it did was because it was "the best concert EVER". It was pretty fun... And managing to navigate / jump my way to the front during the encore was fantastic. I could finally see Isaac

2005-02-28T00:53:00.000-07:00

mmm, brains

a series of importunate events

2005-02-26T03:41:00.000-07:00

Today was a fairly good day, I'd think. So this morning I turned in my program online, and headed off to class... I did end up being three minutes late, but, ah well. YOU'VE GOT TO BE FRICKING KIDDING ME! I'm taking the "express" bus route. We've made every single fucking stop on the way here. The whole goddamn point of the express route is that it's faster because it SKIPS all these stops!

thoughts...

2005-02-25T10:41:00.000-07:00

Ugh. I'm sick of the dorm food. By ten, you can't get an omelet at Libby anyway, and I don't want to eat any more scrambled eggs. Hmmm... Easy Mac it is. Oh, best not forget my multi-vitamin. So I've been feeling a bit under the weather lately. Yesterday I felt much better, and today all I've noticed is that my throat's a bit sore, but that could be because it's dry. Well, that was a hassle.

2005-02-19T03:29:00.000-07:00

once you watch it, you can't unwatch it!

cheater

2005-02-14T04:39:00.000-07:00

I cheated; I got my valentine's presents early... It's funny, because this is the first year that I've had valentine's gifts that weren't from my parents... In some ways, it really is an overrated holiday, it's just to make all the single people jealous and all the non-single people (or at least, the ones who dislike pink or red) gag. Ah, well, I don't mind... I have butterscotch candies! Heh

reversal

2005-02-13T03:39:00.000-07:00

[ note: This entry is backdated because I meant to post it yesterday night before I went to sleep. ] [ current time: 2/13/05 11:58 PM ] current song: Billy Joel - All About Soul I had a really fun night. So right now I'm doing laundry. It's 2:30 in the morning. No one's doing laundry. I'm queen of the laundry room, as it were. Today when I woke up at noon my roommates were both sound asleep.

utsukushii desu ne

2005-02-09T02:19:00.000-07:00

風が聞きましょう。今晩は星が美しいですね。 Let's listen to the wind. Tonight, the stars are beautiful, aren't they? I'm tired, and I'm disappointed in myself, but I think I'll make it through. If I can make someone happy, maybe I can make myself happy too... Maybe this time I won't sleep in. Though if I do, I'm not sure I'll care as much, considering how much I've been paying attention in class so far this

laptop troubles

2005-02-01T00:36:00.000-07:00

So I was talking to my parents the other day and I mentioned that my current laptop sucks, but I couldn't actually remember what my major grievance was: the power. So the battery sucks. That's expected. Maybe I can get a new battery or something. Its really short life can hinder me only so long as I have no power cord! Oh, wait... my power cord is screwed up. So I plug it into the port and.

freedom of spirit

2005-01-31T02:25:00.000-07:00

current song: The Cranberries - Dreams I like this song so much more now... Funny how that works. A song gets a new meaning and suddenly it's good again. It's like listening to The Strokes that summer. I'd heard them and dismissed them; they were overplayed and overrated. But then I heard them in someone else's car and they suddenly meant summer nights and for some reason I couldn't get

yokatta

2005-01-29T02:27:00.000-07:00

current song: Moody Blues - Driftwood .... I refuse to believe that Chaffin made up "crumble"... I demand a... recount. That's right. Just like Florida. Given my boyfriend's last name, I hear quite a few crumble jokes... And you should see what it says on his mailbox in the engineering center. The horror... Ok, so, now that I'm off that tangent... As for that math book I got from Luke,

pulling the pieces back together

2005-01-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

I feel like I'm running out of things to say. I guess I feel that way for everything these days. Like all I have left is listening, and after a while I lose my focus and I can't do that right either. So Luke gave me a mathematics book. It seems nifty; I'll make a concerted effort to read it. It's a survey of mathematics type thing, pretty big and with lots of pages, but hopefully it'll be

2005-01-22T01:48:00.000-07:00

Oif. I'm tired. Cam's right, I do need to stand up for myself. It's difficult though. To find the words to say, without becoming vulnerable in the process. I'm looking forward to eating lunch with Sarah tomorrow. I feel like I'm missing something, and it makes me want to eat. I should just go to sleep instead.

whatever I feel like doing!

2005-01-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

I had something to say, I swear. What's going on in my life? I don't know. Life seems uneventful. On Monday I drag myself out of bed in order to get to class at eleven. Since no one shows up in the engineering center before then, no point to get there early. So I sit through comp sci, alternating between doodling on my notebook and glancing over at Spencer and/or Cam's computer screen..

2005-01-19T00:10:00.000-07:00

Jessa's recipe for lemonade: 1 bottle water 1 bag lemon drops Pour lemon drops one at a time into water and let dissolve. Keep adding drops until desired sweetness.

recognition

2005-01-18T01:17:00.000-07:00

So that's where I recognized her from... The girl in Firefly, Kaylee, also starred in the tv series Flash Forward. Yeah... lame Disney shows are always fun.

safe and still

2005-01-17T01:07:00.000-07:00

current song: Keane - Untitled 1 I just finished playing a session of World of Warcraft with my mommy... It's fun. I'm a hunter tauren, so I'm a big minotaur with a wolf pet. I'ma name him something dumb, like "Wolfie," or even worse "Thorny." Just because I can. So it's 11:41 pm right now. I bet Daniel won't be done with work for a while. The campus seems pretty empty... Next week I'll

hangover

2005-01-16T01:25:00.000-07:00

Cam is so going to regret tonight come tomorrow morning... He's incredibly entertaining while drunk though... The biggest changes, that I could tell, was his lack of coordination, and his willingness to admit that Daniel had indeed come to him and told him that he liked me. See, when he's sober, he just clams up. I'm glad; it means I can tell him silly things and not worry about him telling

like dominique

2005-01-13T00:31:00.000-07:00

I don't want to talk about it anymore... It's like... others don't know how precious it is. They just wreck it. They can see it, but without comprehending how wonderful it is. They can look at him without seeing how wonderful he is... I don't even know what I'm doing anymore... It's good to talk to him, even as my world seems to be drifting apart... He pushes the pieces back together again

at last

2005-01-12T02:45:00.000-07:00

I didn't get to see who got hit 8888... I'm tired. Very tired... I still need to do Japanese homework, and data structures homework, and gamelets homework. It's 2:30 in the morning, and The Parent 'Hood is on our tv. Why? Today Spencer finally figured it out. I came into the engineering center wearing a plaid flannel... He asked me why the hippie skirt, and then pointed out the flannel.

new beginnings

2005-01-08T12:12:00.000-07:00

current song: The Stills - Talk To Me So, happy new year, everyone. I'm making the terrible mistake of installing World of Warcraft onto my laptop. And yes, this is the computer I take to school. Eesh. But I don't get my own account; Mom expects that to limit my playtime some. I certainly hope so... When I try to look up my textbooks online, the only book listed is for Comp Sci. That's

wish you were here

2004-12-21T16:48:00.000-07:00

Salutations from Costa Maya, México, or wherever the heck I am. This is, what, the third day? Fourth day? of our family's Caribbean cruise. It's not bad. I've purchased 30 minutes of internet access for my laptop, which is enough to send and receive emails and post the occasional weblog entry, as I'm doing now. Indeed. Yeas, not much exciting has happened of late... well, nothing good, anyways

Have Fun.

2004-12-17T02:54:00.000-07:00

current song: Annie Lennox - Walking on Broken Glass I had a lovely time today. Stayed up til 5 last night cleaning. It was.. something to do, at last. I think the thing that's going to drive me nuts the most is not having something to do, something to haunt me. I grow rather affectionate of that cloud of worry that follows me during the school year. There's always something to run away from.

fun with ascii

2004-12-15T23:21:00.000-07:00

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hi everybody

2004-12-14T21:51:00.000-07:00

Now, just because I don't make a blog entry for a week doesn't mean I'm dead. I've just been a bit busy lately. I almost lost my cell phone yesterday (today)... Thank goodness for Chris and for the kind soul who picked it up and called him in search of the phone's owner. Things are good but I shall miss my boy over break. Ah, well, that's what email's for, I suppose. And I kept both of us

well then.

2004-12-06T03:17:00.000-07:00

current song: The Strokes - The End Has No End I finished reading his entire webjournal. I guess it's a good thing he gave me his monologues. Else, what would I have to read in the wee morning hours? It's strange though, that I finished it. I didn't think I would so quickly... I find it rather bizarre. I mean... I've... read it all. 131 entries isn't that hard to swallow, but still...

explanation

2004-12-02T18:15:00.000-07:00

So. I wrote a paragraph in my November 29 blog entry about walking to calc class... My dad sent me an email asking about it. There is a time and a place for vagueness and obscurity, and as much as I enjoy confusing people, and as much as I hate being unnecessarily obvious, sometimes it's nice to be clear. So... this is the explanation I gave my father about the mysterious paragraph. I ...

belief

2004-12-02T01:45:00.000-07:00

I don't think I've ever been happier... I've thought of a ... term of endearment. But I'll only use it in my own mind, never out loud... maybe, someday, I'll use it aloud, but only when I talk to him. For the first time ever, Cam told me "TMI!" I didn't think it was possible... maybe because he's starting to think that my jokes may be less joke and more truth. I am insecure, unsure, full

cam is not a slut.

2004-11-29T23:07:00.000-07:00

Andreas says: don't take Computers as Components until you've taken a few more classes, including Databases. Note to self: Leave Computers as Components for a semester where I'm only taking 12 credit hours. As I walked towards my class I didn't look back. It was an interesting contrast to, say, last night, for instance. I'm not the one who's going anywhere. I'm already at my destination. So

i'll be waiting there for you

2004-11-29T02:56:00.000-07:00

current song: Moody Blues - The Day We Meet Again I'm so lucky to have him... He really does make me happy. So... it's been, what, a week? Yes. One week... So far. Thank you.