...when I start failing all my classes. First quarter, every year, I get good grades, but by the time second quarter rolls around, I just stop caring. It's aggravating. I hate school. I shouldn't hate it. I like learning. I like talking to my friends. I like thinking and analyzing my thoughts. But it just isn't working for me. I'be given up doing anything in comp sci. I've stopped doing history assignments. I haven't done any math since 12.3, and we're now up to 12.10. I think there might be a test tomorrow. And yet, I just don't want to do it. And I'm not making myself do it, because I don't want to. That shouldn't be enough of an excuse to not do it. But if that's the case, why am I not doing my homework?
Ah, well. I just can't wait to get out of high school. But after that comes college, where I'm even more independent. So, say I make it through college. What then? A job I don't care about? Doing things I don't want to do just so I can eat? Will I be able to force myself through 40 years of doing something I hate if I can't even force myself to do more than 10 weeks of what I strongly dislike? What kind of a life is that, anyways?
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