no, I'm not dead

Yes, it's been a while. So... My laptop's dead. While attempting to jiggle the powerplug back into place, I turned and tripped on the cord, resulting in the laptop falling off the dresser it had been placed upon. I managed to catch my laptop mid fall, but not before it bashed itself on the dresser. So now it has a lovely gigantic diagonal burst of dead pixels, and the power cord sparks and hisses angrily when you attempt to jam it into the unreceptive port.

The result of all this, is that I attempted in vain to get my data off the harddrive in the remaining 18 minutes of battery power I had left. I brought up my desktop to my apartment... and now I have no internet connection. So I've been checking my email sparingly, much less surfing the net and weblogging like I used to.

The period between the end of spring semester and the beginning of summer semester was somewhat tortuous. If, uh, that's a word. Maybe it means cake-like, I don't know. At any rate, I was exceedingly bored with no job, no net connection, no tv, no friends up in Boulder, and a boyfriend with a 9-5 job. I mean... I did stuff... but... it was pretty boring. Now I'm in school. It's not so bad. Three hours of every weekday are occupied by class, I have two clubs to go to every week, and I have homework to do and various household chores.

So my parents have decided to grant me financial independence. It's not like I didn't want it, but, I currently have almost no money, and no job, and I need to find one. My mom tells me "Well, I don't think your father will want you to get a job this summer," but I can't really afford not to anymore. I have a certain amount of money that was saved up for college but I don't want to take out any loans, I don't want to spend it all and have no financial backing for when I'm looking for a job after college, I don't want to sell the stocks, and my living expenses right now are kind of horrifying. I'll cut back, and such, but... I don't know. It's frustrating, because I've never done this stuff before and... Eh, I'm just whining. It's all stuff I have to do, and it's all stuff I don't really know how to do, and even though I want a job, in a vague kind of way, I don't, because it'll take up a lot of time, and getting it and keeping it and doing it are ... well... work, I guess. It's always easier to just sit on your butt. I think once I make up my resume and find some places to send it, write the cover letters, and file my applications... it'll be... better.

So, yeah, I'm not dead. See?