as nice as it is to know i'm not alone in the universe, it kind of sucks to know that other people are suffering like i am. most of the time i just feel so isolated from people that i seem to think i'm miserable, and they're not. which is an absurd notion. we're all in the same boat. it's just as hard for most people to get out of bed in the morning as it is for me. in a lot of ways i have it easier, since i'm gifted in certain things. take, for instance, understanding of concepts. usually it doesn't take me too long to catch on to concepts. i don't have too much trouble with that most of the time and i know some people really struggle with it. but i have the idea that all my other faults make me worse off than the other people. in a way, that's rather egocentric. i mean, who am i to say who's worse off than me, or better off? the people who seem to have it better than me are probably working their butts off for it. and although i feel that doing work is a living hell, who's not to say that it isn't hell for anyone else? i think i have a rather low pain threshold. but, see, my friends have just as hard a time as i do. they have to live through hell too. and they have to find some kind of motivation to work.

hmph. well, i don't know. i'm probably more similar to people than i think. it's a nice feeling, kind of. odd, but nice.