It's been bothering me a lot lately, more than I thought it would. And since I can't find a way to say it in person, I'll just put it on here.

I don't think it's fair that you can't go to the college you want to go to. Over four years, it costs one hundred thousand more than boulder, and yeah, that's hella expensive, but there're loans, and financial aid, and scholarships, and summer jobs. You should ask how much your parents would be willing to pay for college. Boulder costs 60 thousand for four years, basically. And if going there means you're going to stop trying, it'll be harder to get extra money, won't it? Harder to get scholarships, and you won't care enough to do the other stuff. At least, I wouldn't want to. The only reason I'm going to Boulder is because it's a decent school and close to home, and I've never really had anything else in mind. If I could find a really great college, one that I'd love to go to, I'd try harder so I could go there. But I've never really found anything I care enough about. You've found that, though, haven't you? Don't you think it'd be a waste to give up now? Aren't there other ways to get it? Did you give up just like that or did you at least try to make it work? If you tried, and you can't do it, then I guess I won't bother anymore. But that doesn't mean it won't bother me. It bothers me to see someone really want something and not able to get it. I'm the opposite - I could probably have almost anything if I wanted it enough, but I don't know what I want. And it makes me lose hope that if I ever do find something, that it'll give me a reason to live, that it will be possible to achieve.