Who? Me, ramble?

current song: Linkin Park - Easier to Run

Oh, drool...

You know what was cool? Talking to Josh on the way to pottery. It's another reason to be grateful for science bowl. But, he was asking me why I was taking the class. Apparently he'd "heard" that I was taking it without needing it for credits. It's true. I don't need any more credits to graduate. Unless, uh, I flunk English next semester, but I think I'll be ok. But, he was asking why I was taking it when I didn't need to; he certainly wouldn't be taking the class if he didn't need the credit. I told him I wanted to relax for my senior year, and he pointed out that I could just go home instead. Good point. Regardless, I find pottery (and photo) more relaxing, and enjoyable, than simply going home and catching up on my sleep. I've wanted to take visual arts classes since freshman year, and this is basically the first year I've been able to. And, on the going home thing: it occurs to me that I'd either have to hang around for an hour and a half, or come back to school in order to go to all my clubs. And help out Bess, of course. Can't forget the teacups.

Speaking of Bess, and clubs, and teacups, I've been ditching art club recently. It makes me feel bad, but once it was for science bowl and the other couple times it was for teacups. I mean, what, do you people want no teacups on teaday? I still feel like I'm missing out, but meh. There are a few things going into it.

1. One, I no longer have Ms. Brown as an art teacher. So no lingering after class for easy access to art club, and no real feeling awkward if I don't go, since I won't see her in class later, and thus feel guilty. Yes, yes, it's irrational, but it happens.
2. That's another thing. Clay club. If I go to clay club on wednesday (which I must say, needs members more desperately than PAINT does), I don't have time to clean all the teacups. Because, ok, here's my schedule after school: Monday - Knowledge Bowl or Ms. Bess/teacups. Tuesday - science bowl, art club, or teacups. Wednesday - Clay club or teacups. Thursday - AI (on those rare occasions... but meh, I FORGOT last month... bloody hell... won't forget the one this week, no, I swear!) or teacups. Friday - Red Cross and/or Science bowl. And, you know, some days I just want to go home. Wouldn't you? And since I place a higher priority on knowledge bowl, red cross, and friday science bowl than on teacups, and since I can't always get the teacups washed in two days after, I sometimes feel I have to sacrifice art club...
3. Third, and this is the most... I don't know, paranoid, irrational, stupid? But, well, I'm afraid of Sara. Yep. I mean, she's so nice, and she's really self-confident, and she works hard, and is a leader, and is just in general an awesome person. Right? But she doesn't seem to really like me, and as a result, I tend to shy away from her. Now, I don't know if she really doesn't like me, or what, but, regardless, I get that impression and, ergo, am scared. So, that's my third reason to stay away from art club. Besides, I see her in clay club, or at least, I saw her last time. And it was much less intimidating, for some reason. Meh. Whatever. I don't know.
4. Oh, and also, although I know people there (Sarah, Sonia, Ellen, Sara... but isn't she disqualified for the reason above?) I don't really feel I belong... or something. I feel kind of out of place. Especially when I'm surrounded by mannequins. The stool was cool, and it gave me a reason to come, but then again, I find it hard to maintain conversations with the other people there, and yeah...

So, that's my art club rant. Yup.

Oh! JETS is on tuesday! Sweetness! Mustn't forget. That's going to be so fun. I just hope, hope, hope, that we don't get shown up by the juniors. Bloody stupid smart juniors. Why they gotta be smarter than us? Meh, well, us seniors did have our moment in the sun last year when we (basically) got best in the nation. But, no, they don't give us anything for it, because they refuse to operate in anything bigger than "divisions". Best in division is good for me, though.

But, meh, there's all this crap due. You'd think I'd be used to it by now... Let's see. I'm finally done with the EE, as crappy as it is (was). I've done my history i.a. but feel I should correct it where Gore pointed out some error I made. Even though he gave me a good score, I feel I should correct that problem instead of being lazy. I was lazy on my e.e., and it made me feel bad. There's also the correction of the world lit papers one and two, which are due next thursday... aaaaaargh... and the c.a.s. paperwork due to IB really really soon! Oh God... and the dossier, and I have to complete the program by this friday! This friday! The whole bloody program! How am I supposed to do that?! I need to, though, I really need to. And, let's see, the math hw I didn't do yesterday which is now due this thursday, but meh. And then there's... what... wait... I can't think of anything else. Yes! Yes! There's an end! The light .... between the tunnel? What the heck is that expression again? Oh well... Oh, it's "at the end of" isn't it? Well, then. I've solved that mystery.