frustration

It's odd... Not the most uplifting conversation, but it's certainly making me think. And... I need to stop being so selfish. It ends up hurting me...

I hate it. I want to judge these things myself... but I don't think I have the strength to...

And I still don't know what I want from life...

He was right the first time. I can't keep doing this to myself, because I won't be able to live with myself if I do... The funny thing is, it's one of the few things that I'm willing to waste my time on anymore. It's horrible, but it's true. So I guess I need to get to the point where it's ok to waste my time in other ways.

Ah, well, I suppose realizing that makes me feel better.