Saturday, November 13, 2004

oh my

It's strange to think that the guy who makes me happiest is the one that I don't want to become romantically involved with...

It's like what I told Cam in the movie theater when we saw The Incredibles. Before the movie, we were talking... about him, actually... and Cam was of course teasing me in the way that he has. And I said that no, actually, I did not want to have sex with this person or try to do that kind of stuff with him. Cam asked me why not. I replied that, in my experience, romantic involvement is not the best thing you can do for a friendship. He responded saying that I was too cynical for my age. It was okay for him to believe that, because he was 25 and experienced... but I shouldn't think that yet.

Well, it's too late... and it's something I wish I had known sooner. This is actually the first time in my life where I've pushed down any impulses I've had ... because I really want to "just be friends"... Because I do.

It'd be nice to have someone besides Nikki that I can really talk to...

Which reminds me. The Quote of the Day:

psychobunny2323: Jessa..I think he...
psychobunny2323: knows about my secret...
psychobunny2323: :(
kanashii ichigo: ohhh...
kanashii ichigo: your secret identity?
psychobunny2323: not that
kanashii ichigo: lol
psychobunny2323: but..
kanashii ichigo: that you like him?
psychobunny2323: not that..something much more serious
kanashii ichigo: uh oh.
kanashii ichigo: What secret is this?
psychobunny2323: I think he knows..
kanashii ichigo: That you're... really a Man???
kanashii ichigo: Sorry. continue
psychobunny2323: LOL
psychobunny2323: I think he knows..
psychobunny2323: about...
psychobunny2323: about...
psychobunny2323: I cant even say it
kanashii ichigo: your cheese fetish? Spit it out woman!
psychobunny2323: lol
psychobunny2323: ..the other man in my life...I think he found out about Chad (Michael Murray)...
psychobunny2323: he saw the picture on the wall
psychobunny2323: I couldn't hide it from him any longer

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