current song: home - dishwalla

it makes me sad that i'm no one's support. i mean, when you think about it, no one comes to me when they feel bad. i go to other people, but nobody ever goes to me. occasionally, my mom will. that's about it. i think nikki used to go to me sometimes, but not really anymore. have i really drifted away from people that much? i always have to talk to other people, and they don't really ever talk to me. maybe i'm hallucinating. maybe nobody thinks of me when they want to talk. but any way you look at it, i don't really feel like other people want to talk to me. kind of lonely to feel that way. but, i know that people like talking to me; people seem to enjoy conversing with me when i talk to them, for the most part. but... they don't want to talk to me anymore than they want to talk to other people.

maybe i'm expecting too much. best not to think about it, anyways. just another thing to get depressed about.