a thought:

when i was in parsons' mobile on wednesday, he was helping someone translate a sonnet. it was about this guy who was helplessly in love with a girl, and she had absolutely no interest in him whatsoever. he tells her that she's stepping all over him, and that he lets her because he loves her. he sees that because he loves her, she will never love him... and parsons and the guy who was getting help translating the sonnet were talking about it. and parsons said, "Well, no one really likes the people who are nuts about them. Don't you find it weird when someone idolizes you?" anyways, that just made me wince. i don't know whether or not i idolize the guy i like, but i do know i probably think about him way more than he realizes. so, if i let him know that, wouldn't that creep him out? but, is it really fair that he not know how i feel about him? i think that we could be considered friends. so, if he knew how i felt, would he reject my friendship as well? or, does he already know, and i'm the clueless one? gah.