Dammit, dammit, dammit. I didn't ask today, either. I didn't get the opportunity. So now I have to wait all weekend, and it's already driving me nuts!

Another thing that bugs me: I have friends, right? Uh, hopefully. So, when I talk to them in person I get a different reaction from when I talk to them online. This makes me unhappy. It's one thing to express different ideas in different situations, but I don't like being able to talk to someone in only one medium. One of my friends, for example, is awesome to talk to during school. She's such a cool person and so entertaining and I love talking to her. But online if I try to talk to her it doesn't really work. Another friend is really fun to talk to online, but in person we almost never talk, and it's depressing to see him at school and never talk to him when I know we probably could. I'm probably making too much of a big deal of this, but it's kind of frustrating when you communicate with somebody in a certain medium, feel really good about it, then horribly fail at any other medium of communication. Maybe it's just that I suck at conversations. I mean, the best conversations I have are always me listening to people. So I can't really input anything. And in some mediums the conversation dies if you don't have anything to say. Eh, who knows.

I don't know if anyone has a crush on me, but if anyone did I sure wish I were less clueless about it. As nice as the guy I like is, it's really frustrating to sometimes not seem to exist for him. It would be really nice to be around a guy who actually cares.

I can't let myself get bitter though. Things really aren't that bad. School's almost over, at least. I just need to get a more positive outlook. Yeah. Something like that.