Well, anyways. I'm feeling better now.

I watched most of Spirited Away tonight with mum and dad. That was really fun. That movie is so cool! Dad made us stop watching since he has to go to do improv. Blech.

I really don't know what I want to do for a job. I've always had computer programming as being my back-up job. The one I'd go for if I couldn't think of anything else. It's not like it's a dream of mine to be a computer programmer. And there are so many other things that interest me, I realize. It's just finding one of them, and going for it, and seeing if I can make a career out of it. Even though I may never accomplish anything other people will remember me for, maybe I can accomplish something that I care about. I think I'm going about it all wrong when I assess whether something's worth doing on the basis of how important it is to other people. If I just did things that I cared about, I'd be a happier person. And that means I don't have to rebel by not doing what other people want. Just figure out what I want, and do that. I mean, sometimes I wonder if the reason I don't do homework is because it's what other people want me to do. But if I don't think of it that way, maybe I can get good grades and do homework and still be happy. I mean, if I dismissed all the homework I found boring but did everything I thought was kind of interesting, I'd probably be doing a whole lot more homework than I'm doing now.

Maybe I'll be a physicist when I grow up. Or maybe an author. Or maybe I'll teach philosophy. Or something. I just don't want to be stuck with anything just because I can't think of any other options. Options are good. So maybe I will be a computer programmer... but only if that's what makes me happiest. Yeah.