current mp3: leave - matchbox 20 well, today was mum's birthday. i hope she liked it. she saw harry potter and hated it, just like the first one. she's loved all the books but she hates the movie harry. i've been thinking. it's nice to think, sometimes, when it doesn't hurt you too much or make you angry. but, i've been thinking, it's really hard to open up to somebody. and everyone puts on their masks in front of everybody else. inside we're all the same, soft and vulnerable and unhappy. we all want more than we have and wonder why we feel alone. some of us can deal better than others. some can cover it up better. some just push the pain away. but, we all feel, to some extent, that we can't reveal our true selves because we won't be accepted. we won't be loved for who we are. and we build layers, to cover up the part inside that is so easily hurt. like, think of a milky way bar, or something. the tender part of us is the nougat. and we cover it with sticky sweet caramel or hard chocolate. um, yeah. we're tougher than we really feel. or we're happier. but who's going to eat only nougat? the strange thing with that particular analogy, is that i don't like to eat my candy bars in one piece. i eat the chocolate and caramel first. and then the nougat... so does that mean that the really good part is the nougat? maybe it's ok, every once in a while, to strip away the outside layers and show your true self. but only to someone who will really appreciate it. and that's the tricky part - finding the right person, who will like the nougat. eh. ignore my insane candy bar analogies. i should take philosophy sometime - i'd relate everything back to food.